This tall ship thing

[azziria]

I might hate it (although I don't think so). But I might. So I'm trying (pretty unsuccessfully, I might add!) not to get too excited about going, even though it's waking me up in the middle of the night at the moment.

What I figure is this: even if I do hate it, I'll have done it. I'll know what it feels like. I'll have been out there, up in that rigging, whatever, another big experience to add to the sum of my life.

I'll probably love it. I love the sea, love being active and doing, I'm not fazed by getting wet or uncomfortable or knackered. I hope I love it. I want to love it.

This trip is for me. Not for mommy-me, or work-me, but for the essential bit-right-in-the-middle of me. The me that needs to have adventures and challenge myself, be a doer not a spectator. Love it or hate it, it's just what I need right now.

Does this sound like pretentious twaddle? If so, I apologize, but it really is how I feel about this.

Comments

[linaelyn.livejournal.com]

It does NOT sound like pretentious twaddle.

It sounds EXACTLY like how I felt, prior to going on the solo backpacking thing. It was definitely going to be challenging. It might be painful and I might get hurt or fell lonely.

Don't worry too much about enjoying the anticipation! It just may be not-what-you-expected. But it will be a new experience, and you will learn from it! To deny the joy of looking forward to this, is to deny some of the joy of the entire venture.

*bounce*squeee*bounce*

[raggedrose.livejournal.com]

Sounds more like true and good to me. And very, very familiar. I had no idea what to expect. I was sure I'd let everybody down, and that I'd built the experience up in my head to such a level that the reality would never measure up.

I did fine, and so will you. And I'll bet you a round, should we ever meet in RL, that you will absolutely LOVE it!

[maymorning.livejournal.com]

Mummy-time, oh I hear you! I could do with some of that. I would love to go to Newmarket. Not a very big ambition, but I was born there and I've never been back since my parents took me back to the north east 8 weeks later. But. Ah well.

Have a wonderful time and mind, we'll expect lots and lots of pics.